Whatever you may call it, it all sums up to one thing. Regret.
I'm the one who have always told herself not to regret whatever actions that she may have taken or the things that she had done. Yes, I feel I have not done enough, I always feel that it is never enough, I have no regrets for what that has happened, I regret for sometimes misleading myself, for time has passed and it won't return, I always question my actions.Where will they lead me to?
Where will I end up one day?
I will not pray for solutions to problems from God, I will pray for sufficient strength to let me go through each day with courage to face each day with proper doings and commitments. No excuses, no complaints of failure. Just reasons for being who I am and hopefully, the unprecedented success one day. This time around, I will not believe in 'time will reveal everything'. I'll trust myself in making what I want happen and if it means to struggle through the journey, then so be it. No one else can stop you besides you yourself and I pray, with God's grace, may He lead me to where he wants me to go, I pray that I won't go astray anymore, I pray for strong conscience to remain God as my ultimate Idol in my heart, not any other distractions anymore.
You can't just stop committing idolatry with one thing, God has made us to be a worshiper and we will always worship something.
I am truly deeply inspired by God and I do not want this to ever stop. I want to break free from all sins and wrongdoings which simply means that I want to put a stop into doing what's not necessary and I want to replace all these distractions with God himself and for this, I pray for everlasting faith and strength in learning from Him.
This is the second chance I'm giving myself, I was lost and now, I want to make a change,
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