This time, more than I ever could.

This probably would be the weirdest thing I'm going to utter thus far, nevertheless, it's the only way I can use to describe the hollowness.

Albeit I've been sinking into these feelings, I need to remain a strong heart and a stronger mind for what that comes in the end, it all depends on me. I guess, no amount of time can ever be enough unless this is all over, i.e. if it ends in a blink of an eye. Probably I'm still waiting for the end and they say, if it's not the happy ending, then maybe it ain't the ending yet. I felt so foolish to only come to realize at this very moment, how much he meant to me and the importance of his existence.

THE SARCASTIC ME: You should just stop, thinking all the impossibles. You already know, that it won't happen, so why bother? Yeah, true. I should just... STOP.

It is time to get back to business and now it's all up to you, whether to ace it or flunk it.
There's so much going in my mind, every time I see him. Inside me, it's still screaming, "I don't want him to go."

FUCK YOU! Wake up & stop being so selfish! Just shut up and wish him all the very best.