Merry Christmas, yes!

It’s not just anyone’s birthday, it’s my best friend’s birthday on top of it all, Happy Birthday Jesus and it’s all because of You that we can celebrate this very Merry Christmas! :D Thank You!

Friends like them I treasure.

The best I will always have. :)

Nadhira - Tear Us Apart Feat Ron E Jones - Official Music Video

Nothing matters but you.

Tenacity.

Imagine there's no countries

It isn't hard to do

Nothing to kill or die for

And no religion too

Imagine all the people

Living life in peace

You may say that I'm a dreamer,

But I'm not the only one

I hope someday you would join us

And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions 

I wonder if you care

No need for greed or hunger

A brotherhood of man

Imagine all the people

Sharing all the world

You may say I'm a dreamer,

But I'm not the only one

I hope someday you'll join us

And the world will live as one

As usual, I'm easily inspired by the sweetest things on Earth. This song was performed by the Glee Cast in Season 1 and it definitely touched my heart. This remake was originally sang by John Lennon and the lyrics are so inspiring. 

I'd just like to say, keep imagining and hoping for the Lord will guide you through your life with His hands! 

Let's go change the world! :)

You may say that I'm a dreamer, 

but I'm not the only one.

Bulletproof.

Nothing else matters.
If it happens, that's what I'm gonna do.
FULLSTOP.


Cameron Mitchell. LOVE.
Samuel Larsen. LOVE.

O.

Speaking of O, oh yeah, that's my blood type. Haha. I'm a universal donor! :D

Just yesterday, I donated my blood. 350ml of it. Double bag. LIKE A BOSS.
Okay okay, that was the average amount of every subsequent donor in the hall. I've a friend whom donated 450ml of his blood.

IT was really awkward when they made you sign the HIV Free agreement but of course it was required. Haha!

Frankly, all the tests weren't that scary at all until it finally came to your turn to start pumping your blood out.

The nurse started off by injecting some medication into my hand and when it came to looking for my vein, I caught the sight of the Blood Bag SYRINGE. It was horrific. It was so huge it was the only thing that initially terrified me before I decided to donate my blood. Trust me, it was exactly or not bigger the size of a Vitagen straw. BEAT THAT!

All in all, it was a worthy day, knowing that your blood bag could save maybe just one person, it was all worth it.

And of course, thank God for keeping me from passing out and remaining strong, haha! I just felt a little tired afterwards and already had a good sleep.

It feels great! I can't promise when would be the next of me donating but I sure am donating again in the future!

A boy singing to his little sister.

"You are my sunshine, my only sunshine."

Like any good mother, when Karen found out that another baby was on the way, she did what she could to help her 3 year old son, Michael, prepare for a new sibling.

They found out that the new baby was going to be a girl, and day after day, night after night, Michael sang to his sister in his mommy's tummy.

He was building a bond of love with his little sister before he even met her.

The pregnancy progressed normally for Karen, an active member of the Panther Creek United Methodist Church in Morristown, Tennessee. 

In time, the labor pains came. Soon it was every five minutes, every three, every minute. But serious complications arose during delivery and Karen found herself in hours of labor.

Would a C-section be required?

Finally, after a long struggle, Michael's little sister was born but she was in a very serious condition. With a siren howling in the night, the ambulance rushed the infant to the neonatal intensive care unit at St. Mary's Hospital, Knoxville, Tennessee.

Days inched by, the little baby girl got worse. The pediatrician had to tell the parents that there is very little hope. 

Be prepared for the worst.

Karen and her husband contacted a local cemetery about a burial plot. They had fixed up a special room in their house for their new baby but now they found themselves having to plan for a funeral. 

Michael however, kept begging his parents to let him see his sister. "I want to sing to her," he kept saying.

Week two in intensive care looked as if a funeral would come before the week was over.

Michael kept nagging about singing to his sister, but children were never allowed in the intensive care unit. Karen decided to bring Michael in whether they liked it or not.

If he didn't see his sister right then, he may never see her alive. She dressed him in an over-sized scrub suit and marched him into the ICU. He looked like a walking laundry basket.

The head nurse recognized him as a child and bellowed, "Get the kid out of here now. No children are allowed!"

The mother rose up strong in Karen and the usually mild-mannered lady glared steel-eyed right into the head nurse's face, her lips a firm line.

"He is not leaving until he sings to his sister," she stated. Then Karen towed Michael to his sister's bedside.

He gazed at the tiny infant losing the battle to live. After a moment, he began to sing.

In the pure-heart voice of a 3 year old, Michael sang,

"You are my sunshine, my only sunshine, you make me happy when skies are gray."

Instantly the baby girl seemed to respond.

The pulse rate began to calm down and became steady.

"Keep on singing, Michael!" encouraged Karen with tears in her eyes.

"You never know dear, how much I love you, please don't take my sunshine away."

As Michael sang to his sister, the baby's ragged, strained breathing became as smooth as a kitten's purr.

"Keep on singing, sweetheart."

"The other night dear, as I lay sleeping, I dreamed I held you in my arms."

"Keep on singing, Michael!" 

Tears had now conquered the face of the bossy head nurse.

Karen glowed.

"You are my sunshine, my only sunshine, please don't take my sunshine away."

The next day, the very next day. 

The little girl was well enough to get out of ICU. She went home two weeks later.

Woman's Day magazine called it "The Miracle of A Brother's Song."

The medical staff just called it a miracle.

Karen called it a miracle of God's love.

NEVER GIVE UP ON THE PEOPLE YOU LOVE.

LOVE IS SO INCREDIBLY POWERFUL.

Life is good. 

In God we trust.

'The evidence of God far outweighs the proof of His absence.'

P/S: I had just received this email from a friend of mine and thought I must share it. This is just one of the many miracles that God had made happen. :) Life is good with God.

Disclaimer: The picture posted is not a picture from the real source, it was taken from Google. The content was not created by myself. The only reason I posted it up here is to share with everyone else. :)

Have a nice day!

Nothing speaks more clearly of God's love than the cross. 

Because of Your Grace. ♥

There's a verse from the song 'Unashamed' sang by Starfield which I'm really drawn to.

It goes like this, 

Oh Christ, my King,

Of sympathy,

Whose wounds secure my peace,

Your grace extends,

To call me friend,

Your mercy sets me free.

And I know I'm weak, 

I'm know I'm unworthy,

To call upon Your name, 

But because of grace,

Because of Your mercy,

I stand here unashamed.

Have you ever come across times where you feel most helpless, worthless, clueless about life and you just didn't know what to do?

I've definitely felt that way before. 

Sometimes, I laugh it off but sometimes, I just can't. I let the emotions take its toll on me. But one thing's for sure, when I wake up to a realization, I realized that there's always a reason to it but we just don't know why. Then, you let the open-mindedness help you through the day. And when you get up each day, you grow a stronger person each day because Lord Jesus Christ had led you through another day in your life here, on Earth. 

You know, when I started reading the Bible, and when I came to Mark 4: 37-41 where Jesus Calms The Storm, I didn't quite get the true meaning of the Scripture. 

But now, I understand. Just this previous Sunday, I went to KingdomCityKL again with my friends. PS James Aiton who came all the way from our church in Perth preached on that day.

You can listen to him here. Storms.

I must say, he is such an amazing pastor, no doubt all pastors are inspiring! He made me realized that no matter what storms we're going through at any moment of our life, just know that Jesus is in the boat and like what the Scripture said, Lord Jesus himself calmed the storm with His commands and His disciples were shocked to see that even the wind and the waves obeyed Him! 

If you're currently going through a storm or you may have been through one, just know that no matter what, Lord Jesus Christ will always be in the boat with you. He will not leave you nor forsake you. Always remember that He died on the cross for us and He, the Lord is the only one who is capable of forgiving our sins. Don't rebuke, just repent. :)

No one can ever guarantee you the reason to all that's happening to you but keep in mind, He has a master plan for you. 

Something I'd like to say, it's because of God's grace, I am stronger each day.

John 3: 16 - For God so loved the world, that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him will not perish but have eternal life. 

Here I am,

At Your feet,

In my brokenness complete.

Chris Brown - Next To You ft. Justin Bieber

24th June 2011.

With no arms.

Tae-ho is a strong-willed and determined little boy from South Korea with a permanent smile on his face. He was born on the month of June in Year 2000 and unfortunately, he was abandoned at birth. He suffered  8 severe disabilities. Currently, he is receiving care at a children care center. 

Watching the video of his truly inspiring life story has definitely made me realized so much more about God. The power of Him has lead Tae-ho in such a beautiful challenging life. Tae-ho is 11 years old now and the doctor wasn't expecting him to be able to survive until his 10th birthday. The strong will of Tae-ho does not let his disability to bring him down. The spark and vibe that Tae-ho brings in speaks volumes! His story has definitely warmed my heart and it will do to yours too. :)

Not forgetting, a dear friend of Tae-ho whom he have met during his 2nd grade, Ingee, they're both fond of each other and she is such a adorable darling at such a young age. According to Tae-ho, she always asks him who he wants to marry, and when Ingee was asked of who she wants to marry, she gladly answered Tae-ho and that she wouldn't change her mind. (So sweet! ♥ )

To live life to the fullest is to live with what you have and appreciate every moment of it and always believe that God is love and He is always above it all watching us and taking full care of us with His own hands. :)

The endurance of Tae-ho till today is definitely God's work in action. 

Let's pray for this little amazing child and may his story inspire many more around the world! ♥

God bless. 

For further insight,
Yu Tae-ho's story on Tumblr. :)

P/S:  He is soooooo cute! ♥

Strength in Me.

By loving God, I am strong.
Absurd you may think, you just haven't seen wonders. ;)

Hillsong United - To The Ends Of The Earth

Nerve-racking day; 13 June 2011

I was nerve-racked early morning yesterday and now, I'm really just grateful, grateful for all that He has made for me. 

I asked for a Band 5 and the total score was spot on though I initially thought my Band 5 flew out the window cause I did badly for my essay. 

FYI, a Band 5 is a score range between 220-259 and look where I ended. 

Lucky me? Yeah. To have Him. :)

Okay okay, now I will have to admit that my mastery of the English language is at it's mediocre level. Hands down.

Thank You.

It's You, it's You, who have made everything happened for me.

What happens when you have 16 days of holidays?

These kinds of occasions doesn't happen to me quite often. However, I must say, this is by far, the best holiday I've ever had.

My holidays started out with a 3 day and 2 night school camp. 

Then, the tiredness that came rushing after camp stayed in for 2 days.

I can't remember when exactly but I've managed to watch one movie this holiday, which is Pirates of The Caribbeans : On Stranger Tides with beloveds; Jing Wen, Joannes & Edmund.

There were some extra Math classes too, can't remember when. HAHA. 

But this I could remember,

that came during the weekends and that is church; service at Kingdom City KL!

Has anyone ever told you how beautiful these occasions are?

Now, here I am, telling you, it is that beautiful! :)

You may not understand but all I can say is that it's a indescribable beautiful thing,

and this journey has taught me more ever since.

Then we proceeded to the ordinary weekdays which were as good too.

I went to the library, then later went on the Chocolate Factory trip and The Mines along the way,

not forgetting the delicious and efficient and systematic I.V. restaurant!

Where to get the best Roti Canai in town? I.V. yeah! Yums!

Ohya, heard of ElElyon2011? I was there, Jing Wen too, Jo three, and we had a blast!

Come to think of it, I think I've met Joannes in this one holiday more than 10 times! Yeah! :p

That explains why I miss him so much after the holidays now. Gah. 

Met tonnes of awesome people too! :p (There's just too many!)

AND, I still made it to church on Sunday again, (Yay me!) and it was PS Mark preaching on the final part of Discipleship. Thank you PS Jemima for praying for me! Thanks a million to everyone who have made this holiday an amazingly awesome one!

P/S: I've never the habit to post pictures because I'm not a picture fanatic myself though I wish to. This blog will be improved from time to time. Thank you for reading. :)

Just so you know, you can do a whole lot through prayer. 

Thanks so much to everyone for putting this awesome holiday together and most ultimately, thank you Lord for everything!



Something to ponder upon,

"Are you willing to?"

Yes, from this day on, I am willing to!

Glory to God!

With love.

Glory to God!

Jesus I'm desperate for You

Jesus I'm hungry for You

Jesus I'm longing for You

Cause Lord You are, all I want...

Hillsong United - Thank You (Beautiful Exchange 2010)

Beautiful Exchange.

Hillsong - 19th album; Beautiful Exchange.

You know, probably it has become a norm for Christian songs to be amazing, I reckon yeah! 

Of course it'd be amazing when you praise Him and worship Him! 

Like Dillion said, we're all happy because we have God in us! I totally love what he said! :)

And this album of Jo, Jing passed it to me yesterday and I've just watched it this morning, fell in love with it right away, and if only my netbook have a dvd player by itself, I would watch it all day! 

Thank you everyone! 

Listening to Thank You - Hillsong LIVE

When we compete in a godly way, God wins. - Mike Wittmer

So much to learn, nothing is impossible!

I have so much of gratification to express today. It is already my second visit to Kingdom City today. I really wish to return there every Sunday now.

Thanks so much again to Jonathan for the ride there and the ride back home and also the activities in between! :)

The service today has definitely made me realize so much more, like I said, I can never stop learning from God and I don't want to. Today, I've learned that once you become a Christian, you don't just stop there. You go on inspiring people and in turn making them the disciples of God. (I don't really know how to put it but that's about the meaning to it.) Right now, I am very more sure about the presence of God in my heart. That's something you can not get by accident! It is when you open your arms to Him and accept him whole-heartedly then will you become His disciple.

This feeling is something I can not merely explain by words, it is something to embrace, something for you to feel by your heart, something that overwhelms you unconsciously, something so pure, something so sacred that once you feel it, that's when you'll understand. Have faith in Him!

I am totally drawn towards by this verse today.


Luke 11:5 "Suppose one of you has a friend, and he goes to him at midnight and says, 'Friend, lend me three loaves of bread, because a friend of mine on a journey has come to me, and I have nothing to set before him.'

Suppose some friend come asks you for help, it could be anything, and then you go on and tell him to go search for someone else because you're unable to do what he had asked or probably was too lazy to even help him. For doing so, I have sinned. 

In the Bible, Lord Himself has made the task a responsibility of himself. He goes on to his neighbor asking for three loaves of bread, for his friend that is in need. Lord Jesus literally made Himself responsible for what is needed by His friend. 

This is something I want to embrace from today onwards and I pray I do remember what I've learned today because it impacts so much! 

Listen to Nothing is Impossible!

Through You, I can do anything, I can do all things,

cause it's You who gives me strength,

nothing is impossible!

Have faith!

Break Free From Online Addiction Part 1

Break Free From Online Addiction Part 2

Repentance. Remorse. Penitent. Contrition.

Whatever you may call it, it all sums up to one thing. Regret. 

I'm the one who have always told herself not to regret whatever actions that she may have taken or the things that she had done. Yes, I feel I have not done enough, I always feel that it is never enough, I have no regrets for what that has happened, I regret for sometimes misleading myself, for time has passed and it won't return, I always question my actions.

Where will they lead me to? 

Where will I end up one day? 

I will not pray for solutions to problems from God, I will pray for sufficient strength to let me go through each day with courage to face each day with proper doings and commitments. No excuses, no complaints of failure. Just reasons for being who I am and hopefully, the unprecedented success one day. This time around, I will not believe in 'time will reveal everything'. I'll trust myself in making what I want happen and if it means to struggle through the journey, then so be it. No one else can stop you besides you yourself and  I pray, with God's grace, may He lead me to where he wants me to go, I pray that I won't go astray anymore, I pray for strong conscience to remain God as my ultimate Idol in my heart, not any other distractions anymore.

You can't just stop committing idolatry with one thing, God has made us to be a worshiper and we will always worship something.

I am truly deeply inspired by God and I do not want this to ever stop.  I want to break free from all sins and wrongdoings which simply means that I want to put a stop into doing what's not necessary and I want to replace all these distractions with God himself and for this, I pray for everlasting faith and strength in learning from Him.

This is the second chance I'm giving myself, I was lost and now, I want to make a change,

Just when I thought it's over, it definitely hasn't.

There's something I can't seem to stop myself from doing nowadays and it has probably gone from bad to worse. Okay, that's probably a little exaggerating but yeah, it hasn't do me any good. The only good it does me is I get to buy what I love. HAHA. Omg.

I am seriously starting to wonder when has this shopping thing gotten into me. LMAOO! Let me just reflect on what I recently bought for myself,... (HAHA!) As long as I can rmbr.

• A Bodycon Scallop Panel Skirt
• A Drape London Top
• A Maxi Blue Dress
• A Semi-length Body Long Sleeve Cardigan
• A Bohemian/Tribal Maxi Dress
• and the list goes on...

And the best part is, I haven't even worn any of those!? Like WTH yeah!

It's time for me to get rid of this shit before it shits on me again! ;)

Likewise.

I NEED TO BREATHE AGAIN!

We Pray For You -55 Youtubers Edition -Japan/ US Tornado Tribute (Origin...

Does God care about your sexuality?

Does God care about your sexuality?

The Bible. ♥

What Is the Bible?

The word Bible means "book." The Bible was given this name because it is the book of God's words to us. The Bible is also sometimes called Scripture, a word meaning "something written." The Bible is like a library of 66 books put together into one big book. But all the books within the Bible talk about the same subject: God's message to us. The Bible tells us about God, shows us God's mighty acts in the lives of his people, and describes how people responded to God. From the Bible we learn what God is like and what he expects of us. 

These few lines were taken from the Holy Bible gifted to me today by a very dear friend of mine. I still can't stop smiling now. :) I feel so blessed to have been able to receive such a gift. It almost brought tears to my eyes cause this is so very much meaningful to me. It has been past one week since I accepted Lord Jesus Christ and this journey has been truly amazing since. I feel there's so much more to learn every single day and I can't wait to explore so much more.

Just few days after the acceptance, I met Roy online and we were talking and he asked, "What's new?" and being the same old me, I've always thought of nothing besides studying. Then it occurred to me that I've recently make a change in my life and thus, I told him my story. :) He was just as delighted as I am and he told me that long ago, back in those school rally days, he wrote or prayed to five names hoping that they would accept Lord Jesus one day. To my surprise, he told me that, one of the names written was my name. That thought really made my day, in fact, it has always made my day every time I think about it. Then he go on to asking me whether I have a Bible and I said yeah, a NIV Holy Bible. Then he asked again whether he can give me one. I was so delighted and happy that I actually said yes! Because the Bible that I'm having is rather miniature, I told him I'd prefer a larger one with a hard cover. I didn't know why but I happily told him what I wanted and that's exactly what he had gotten for me. You can say that now I'm feeling very much "head over heels." ♥

Dear God, please guide me in reading Your word. 

Show me what you want to show me and open my mind to receive your word.

In Jesus' name I pray, Amen. ♥

Before I end this post, I would love to thank my very dear friend,

Roy,

for such a wonderful gift. 

♥ ♥ ♥

I can't wait to explore more about God because he creates wonders for us. ♥

:)

Hold yourself together.

Given one chance, given the fair amount of time, don't lose it this time, at the end of the day, it's you who are going to give yourself the ultimate opportunity and given this opportunity, it's God's way of saying if they can do it, you can do it too.

You have not studied anything until you've really learned something by heart.

Do it not for anyone but yourself.

Your destiny lies in your bare hands.

This is not the last you've seen of me.

Hillsong - Hosanna

Hosanna in the highest...

PlanetShakers - Evermore

My All Time Favourite. :)

Hillsong, Better than life

Better than the riches in this world!

Boo says...

Wake me up when it's weekend again. -.-

Listening,
Hillsong - Better Than Life

The prayer.

24th April 2011, Easter Sunday.

Marked the day I took the leap of faith at kingdomcity. ♥

Met PS Matt Fielder, awesome man! :)

Thanks to Jo. (LOL!)

Joe Nichols - If Nobody Believed In You

Granpa scene brought me to tears,...

You could either choose to kill me or just laugh along.

Earlier yesterday, I've decided to go out with Jing Wen scheduled at 8pm and when we were discussing about this, it was already 6.33pm. I remember the minutes exactly because that was when I shut down the laptop. Then I thought, it wouldn't kill if I take a 5 minute nap. What was first thought to be a 5 minute nap turned out to be a 5 hour sleep! (And yes, Jing Wen was supposed to fetch me, if it was the other way round, I wouldn't feel so much of a jackass.)

During the 5 hour sleep, I was dreaming. I do not know why but when I do dream in my sleep, I tend to succumb into it and hardly anything can wake me up unless something bizarre happen in the dream. And there I was, going through flood waters in school, kicking the puddle of water,...and BAAM!

I woke up.

Trust me, I didn't know what time was it but I knew it was longer than an hour. Then, my heart raced. I quickly jumped off from bed and then I saw the clock on my table, it was a vertical hour needle facing north and the minute needle facing south. I know this is too good to be true but I was hoping that what I saw was 6.00pm. I know it is far from the truth. Then I rushed down to look for my phone, couldn't find it then I ran up again to find it lying at the end of my bed where my feet was set earlier, under my schoolbag. 

I reached for the phone and my heartbeat triggered a little. 

13 Missed Calls and 3 Messages

I only glanced through the messages and called Jing Wen right away! (In my mind, I was saying to myself, I have just dug my own grave, she'd be really pissed by now and probably, awkwardness will rise in the atmosphere!) 

Then she answered. Then I apologized. Then she laughed about it saying it was 3 hours ago. (And she actually text me to check if I was okay because I've gone silent suddenly!) Then I laughed about it, we talked about how I slept, her mom's reaction, and everything else. 

Imagine seeing your daughter driving out earlier to get her friend and there she is, back again in the house in less than an hour. If I am a mother, I would be puzzled and be thinking, what on Earth has gone wrong and who is this friend of hers that can do anything as she like!?

All I could do was be thankful that she wasn't as mad as 3 hours ago when she was waiting in front of my house. THANK YOU! :) Haha.

I mean, you tell me, who on Earth would be so chill after waiting so long for someone? No one likes waiting unless you want to please your girlfriend. 

I just wanna make a point that, everyone else's time is as important as mine and yours and I felt really bad for wasting her time. SORRY!

And, lastly, this is something that I can't help myself but I just wanna stop myself from dreaming too deeply because that's what that had been causing me the oversleeps and occasionally, sleeping through outings like this. Beautiful dreams are good but they can also turn into your unwanted nightmare!

What I thought was fun in the dream turned out to be a nightmare in reality and it slapped me really hard.

I doubt that this will ever happen to any of you but you can learn from my mistake. TEEHEE!

I want those pair of shoes and this picture somehow reminds me of Mary Poppins!

Listening:

Joe Nichols - If Nobody Believed In You

Namaste.

Sometimes a guy's best wingman...

Drum rolls...



Introducing my first ever 2011 movie, JUST GO WITH IT! I do not want to elaborate the story further as some of you might not have seen it.

Highlights from the movie,

1. Adam Sandler
2. Jennifer Aniston (Of course! Strutting down the path in her gorgeous heels and what more exqusite dress!)
3. Not to forget, The Kids - Kiki Dee & Barot! (I forgot their real names.) :p
4. And of course for you guys, Brooklyn Decker, the seemingly voluptuous 40-DD kindergarten teacher! -.-

Presenting,

Brooklyn as Palmer.

...and the Happy Ending as expected!

THE END.

Motherchoot, Brooklyn Decker.

I want to...

,

To where I can see you again. :)

Vice versa.

Like how God loves helping them who help themselves, I too, love helping those who have helped themselves. :)
You deserve for what you had done and not to do what you think you deserve from others. Do you get me?
I suppose not.

To be frank, I am letting this post out cause there's this girl in class who gets on my nerves almost all the time. -.-
I know, I know, I might sound a bit too much of a whiner but trust me, having her as a partner in almost everything in class, kills me inside and OUT. And the worst part, her skin is so thick, gamma rays can't even penetrate her.

To me, she doesn't quite know how to be independent, really.
In my opinion, if you happen to be the only child in the family, you should be not quite, but really independent, in this case, a girl and don't go around acting like a weakling cause girls like that are equivalent to sissies to me and mind you, if you're talking about behaving like how a girl should be, that's not it unless you have a boyfriend to attend to.

I get disgustingly annoyed by such weaklings easily and especially when they're trying to pull off their seemingly 'cute' voice, it doesn't make anything better. I mean, come on, I am too a girl you see, I'm not a male for you to hit on. And mind you, I'm not turned on by your cuteness. To be honest, it's disgusting and it gives me goosebumps.

OMG, I have no other ways to put this out already. Bottom line, I thought I was only going to dislike her, but now, I am hoping that I don't have to look into her eyes anymore because each time I do, she'll be asking for something. When my friends ask me for help, I would help right away but in her case, I would roll my eyes and do it for her forcefully. No idea why seriously.

I mean, you have such a good life, stand up and stop being such a whim!

If I had utter every word that comes in my mind, you can imagine how many FUCKYOU!s she have on her face right now. I shall stop here for now, or else it'll be never ending.

And oh, I forgot to mention, she cries for almost anything. Fail > Cry, Sick > Cry,... Can this get any better?

I shall stop giving unwanted attention to the people that I don't like.

OMG! I'm praying each day that you'll come back soon.

I MISS YOU, douchebag.

Dayumn you! :) The day I can see you in a real flesh would be my happiest day. Trust me, you enlighten me all the time. I never thought I would say this but you always put a smile on my face. FUCK YOU, bestfriend. :)

The worst test everr.

May justice prevail over foolishness.

Much apologies for the frequent hiatus.

The fact that I mentioned frequent hiatus simply means I'm always missing in action especially from blogging. When I first initiated this blog, I thought I would have the time and thoughts to update almost every single day or not weekly. Because this year is my crucial year in the education department, I wished to jot down everything I've been through everyday because memories serves me well at the end of the day. More often than not, I always look up my blog and end up not posting anything be it reasonable or not, worth the time or otherwise. Likewise, when I see other bloggers already having a list of hundreds of posts, I am jealous and having them to post in such an authentic, immaculate way does not make any bit of this easier. Hence, I admire these bloggers.

Just a short update of the day,
I can finally announced that I AM DONE WITH MUET. Let's not talk about the progress of the day. I do not wish to retake a RM60 test again. I would be head over heels if I managed myself a Band 5, that's all I'm asking for. And if at all I get a Band 4, only time will tell whether or not I will decide to retake the test. In the mean time, I'll be focusing on what's coming up. The 2nd Monthly Test which is equally important and I do not wish to fail this time hence, this will require an overwhelming amount of effort from myself. Brain oh brain, please work for this once at least. I will let you rest next year, I promise.

Hence, the change of the title.

When I first heard the song sang on Idol by Pia Toscano, I was moved. The song originally sang by Elton John didn't quite hit me until I heard Pia singing it. And you can bet that I'm very much inspired by her vocals since.
The fact that Pia recently got eliminated didn't quite affect me because she already had her pathway carved right in front her. With the beauty and the face and the strong voice that she's holding, I don't see why she cannot shine in the US. Haha. You can say she's a whole package but never ever forget your roots!

Back to why I changed my title again, yes, I loved the lyrics of the song, I can't really explain why it means so much to me but the fact that I love the song, says it all.

Hence again, the change of the title.

Jessica Mauboy - What Happened To Us

Don't leave me in doubt. I miss you more each day.

Euphoric.

Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! ♥

With You - Chris Brown Cover - Justin singing

When this song by Chris Brown debuted, I thought no one can sing like he did but Justin has definitely proved me wrong. :p

Love JUSTIN BIEBER! ;)

It was good if not at my best to do what I could.

I guess now that what was done is done and there's nothing you can do about it besides doing better for the upcoming examination papers which are dated on the 16th of April. Thinking about the test yesterday was nerve-wrecking but I have to say that doing for real this time was much better than I expected. I definitely cannot evaluate myself because the results are in the hands of both the examiners. I wouldn't say that I did very well because I did hesitated along the discussion. Now we'll just have to wait for the final result to be out in June/July.  Nevertheless, I am glad that I was less nervous during the test and am also very grateful for the task that I've gotten. All in all, I am thankful for the smooth discussion done and is very relieved that the Speaking test is done finally. And if you are wondering what the task was about, this is...

Malaysia needs to produce world-class sportsman and sportswoman. Who do you think is important towards achieving this goal?

The task required was somewhat like that.

The role that I'm required to present is schools. Other candidates were entitled other roles such as parents, the public and the Ministry of Youth and Sports for Candidates A, C and D respectively.

Thankfully I did fulfill the 2 minutes requirements but then again, I do not know whether my stand and elaborations are strong in the eyes of the examiners.

My important advice for 1st time speakers out there is to keep a calm mind and keep your points coming and never stop talking with intonations until your time is up. Try not to hesitate so much because every hesitation is taken into account of your overall marks.

Finally, I'd like to wish all the best to everyone and now I'll have to wait till the final results are out to justify the outcome of my presentation throughout the examination; Malaysian University English Test. Frankly, I do not wish to resit or retake the examination and I pray that I will obtain at least a low Band 5. As long as I manage to obtain a Band 5, I will be more than thankful and relieved.

Thank you. GOOD LUCK & ALL THE BEST fellow candidates!

Je T'aime.

Someone asked, "Why do you prefer long distance relationships?" And this is the answer I've gotten. Not from myself, but adapted from Tumblr. Worth the reblog. :)

They're stronger. They mean a lot more. Well to me that is, I mean think about it. Trust is the biggest thing in a relationship. If you can trust someone who lives hundreds of miles away, then that's beautiful. Sure you don't get to hug the person, kiss the person, wake up next to the person, but you get to talk to them, hear them. Think about how amazing it's going to be when you finally get to meet them. And how perfect it's going to be. You fight less. You laugh more. They're beautiful. And i respect anyone who is in one. They're hard, they're harder than a lot of things, but they're worth it in the end. Why let distance ruins your feelings for someone? Feelings are feelings, love is love, that's not gonna change. I love long distance relationships for a lot of reasons. But mostly because they're beautiful. 

I can't help but to agree more. ♥

..|..

This time around, I'm coming back to say, SHUT THE FUCK UP!
I don't think that I'm great, I just think that you're hopeless and that's the only thing you can't see because you're all about yourself. GET A LIFE!

The Wanted - Gold Forever (Comic Relief Official Single)

Gold Foreverrrrr.

It's true.

Nothing of me is original. I am the combined effort of everyone I've ever known. 

How do I choose between my head and heart.

P.S. I hate to fall into the realm where I start missing you all over again and again. It was supposed to stop but it's all coming back to me now.

1. Praying won't do it.
2. Hating won't do it.
3. Drinking won't do it.
4. Fighting won't knock you out,
5. Of my head.
6. ♥
7. Hiding won't hide it.
8. Smiling won't hide it.
9. Like I ain't tried it,
10. Everyone's tried it now,
11. And failed somehow.

The Wanted - All Time Low (Official)

Hearts. :)

P.S. They are smokin' hot! ;)

Eight score 5As in STPM

Eight score 5As in STPM

Had 'Paint' Fun Today!

Hey, guess what we all did to our class, UA1 today?! Heh.

Obviously, (if you referred to the title) we painted the walls! HAHA.

Excited to see the result? Here goes!

BEFORE.

Oh, this was my class' wall. -.-

AFTER.

NOW, THIS IS MY CLASS! 

BEFORE.

AFTER.

BEFORE.

AFTER.

I personally felt that the darker shade of brown should have been darker, but all in all, I am satisfied and happy with the result and my class teacher, Pn. Sundari loves it too! We all gave comments like, "It feels housey/homey!", "Our class looks like a private school's class!", "We are proud of our class now!" and etc. HAHA.

Now, our ultimate task of painting the class is done and of course, we can focus on our own assignments from this day on! 

P.S. The sad part of the week was having to know that Pn. Sundari will be transferred to some other 'kampung' school because she has been promoted, due to the excess of the same grade teacher in a school, some had to be transferred out. Apparently, there can only be 9 teacher of the same grade in each school at the same time and we are having 13 of them currently. :(

Till this day, I have not regretted a single minute of studying in 6th Form. THANK YOU.

“Every accomplishment starts with the decision to try.”

Lately, it has been occurring to me that if I'm not going to change now, nothing will change for me later on.

And by that, I mean discarding some unnecessary things which will take up my time to focus on what's more important. Sitting here, typing this post, is already a waste of time and yet, I'm still continuing on, reciting this post. What I'm about to do is nothing that bizarre. At the moment, I'm just going to try to reduce rather than eradicate in one go because there are just too many reasons. Reasons that I myself do not want to elaborate.

Apparently, "Vision With Action Will Change The World" - and I'm not disagreeing to this very statement at all. Currently, I have the vision in mind, the action has to come too if I want to make a change. As they say, if you want to make a change, change yourself first. 

The only reason for my long-winded post is to 'declare' that I am determined to spend lesser hours on Facebook. Simply because it is an unnecessary leisure that one can perform after he/she has completed what's more important in his/her daily life. I am not going to just say this for the sake of saying. 10 people can say the same thing but really, how many do accomplish what they say and satisfaction guaranteed at the end? You do the math yourself.

As I have mentioned, my primary mission is to reduce first, I do admit that I can't eradicate the habit right away. I still have other various reasons to take into account too. Example being, I have friends over at the other countries and Facebook is the only media so far that I use to connect with them. HAH. Whatever. That can do later too.

Anyways, as I was saying, in the mean time, I am going to try to go online lesser gradually, day by day, maybe not come on at all in a day, it is not impossible because I've tried it before but maybe I'll come back once in a while to post randoms in my blog. Haha.

And, here goes nothing!

NO FACEBOOK.

First mission: Lesser online hours until the 10th of March.

Next mission: Score decent grades for the First Monthly Test of Year 2011, STPM.

Everybody wants to see something, improvement! 

And without effort and determination, it might as well not get started at all. 

“Nothing in this world can take the place of persistence. Talent will not; nothing is more common than unsuccessful people with talent. Genius will not; unrewarded genius is almost a proverb. Education will not; the world is full of educated derelicts. Persistence and determination alone are omnipotent. The slogan "press on" has solved and always will solve the problems of the human race”

P.S. I Miss You         

Deeper & Harder.

It's going deeper and it ain't helping me.
It's getting harder and it ain't pleasing me.

Dear Lord,
I need you to help me to kill this in me.
I can't stop thinking.
Sometimes it is much easier when we care less,
But...

When life gets deeper, it gets harder.

How I wished things turn out the way I want it to be, every time.

Departure(s)

Counting down the days that pass me by, up to date, there's only 12 days left.

I'm still unable to picture him leaving because I choose not to. 

I'm not gonna lie, I will cry for him. It's getting harder day by day, seriously.

Seeing Zhi Kiat leaving today was difficult but it wasn't the worst. 

Seeing his family was more difficult.

Anyhow, we will always root for him.

I secretly do not want him to leave but that ain't gonna happen.

"Suez, he'll come back. Don't worry."

5 years, ain't 5 minutes. 

I don't know what will happen. 

I feel like I'm going to shatter, 

... 

ALL THE BEST TO YOU ALL! 

My sincere wishes! :)

BON VOYAGE!

If life's a bitch, then you're the bitch.

You gave me a reason to be angry with life. I'm doing all this due to respect. Thank you. Please appreciate while life gives you something back and when you don't think it's good, it will never be good, mind you. If nothing's gonna change, then be the change. Secretly, I'm hoping for a solitary successful peaceful life, one where enables me to travel around the world and not go home. :)

The weekend.

I do not know how else to feel or what to do best to regain my stamina and energy and I'm sure that this is all because of the sleepless nights I've been through.

Somehow rather when the weekend is approaching, I'm always sleep-deprived and most of the time, I won't regain my full energy yet and the beginning of the week is already starting again.

I'M EXHAUSTED.

Can I have some of this? Maybe forever this time.

And probably this after that? 

I'm guessing that this year, 

there are less times that I can be myself, because I'm more obliged to be the person I have to be.

TAKE ME BACK, when this is all overrr.

Zzz.